Hope

When u feel like there's no one to turn to? When you feel like the one u could turn to had now turned on u? When everything u do is for someone, but they act like you're not worthy enough to do a damn thing for them. When your whole world feels like it's turning upside down. When you have a feeling in your gut that you're going to get seriously fucked over. When your lied to. When your looked at from atop of their eagle's nest. When you're made to feel like your best is absolutely revolting and disgusting. When you are talked to like a child. When you feel your dignity slipping. When you let your self-respect get stomped on right in front of your eyes. When you have worked SO GODDAMN HARD to get where you are at n keep screaming, n Screaming, n SCREAMING!!! to try and shake you off your feet, but that doesn't work so now they pull, n Pull, n PULL, n push, n Push, n PUSH! All the while sticking pins n needles in u to see what it will take to break u. I feel myself slipping. I feel my old desires calling in times like this when I feel so fuckin degraded that its a wonder Im still here alive n believing, NEVER letting go. I CAN'T LET GO! I CAN'T LET GO! I CAN'T LET GO! I CAN'T GIVE IN. I've searched ALL my life so I just CAN'T! So I hope cuz HOPE is all I can do. That n continue to be flexible, but my flexibility has stretched so far that sometimes I swear that I m bout to snap into a million little pieces. Its all Sad! But I have HOPE , even if HOPE doesn't have me